Oh and I'm a lion.
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I guess that I, I just thought
maybe we could find new ways to fall apart
Quinntana AU in which Santana is a solider
Dearest Santana,
I know this is only the first letter I’m writing you of what will probably be hundreds. By the time you come home you’ll probably get tired of my hand writing. I’m realizing now my hand is shaking while I write and might be a bit messy. I don’t see that going away. I’ll miss you the entire time you’re gone just the same and I don’t think it will get easier. Unfortunately, while you’re the only thing I let myself be selfish with. I have to share you with the world. They have to see how strong, and brave, and amazing you are. I guess I can’t hold that against anyone. I just hope they’re grateful, and realize that the most amazing woman in the world is risking her life for them. And by that I mean you better not be risking it, you had better be staying in your tent and playing card games for all of these months, do you hear me? No looking for excitement out there. I need you. I know the rest of the world does too, and I know you’ll never listen when I tell you not to fight, but that’s because you’re braver than I am in all of this. Just please come home soon, stay safe, and never forget that I’m always here waiting for you. I haven’t made your side of the bed yet, but I laid there last night. It was different but it smelled like you. And now I’m already doing all of that creepy stuff that you said you’d tease me for when you were home. So just hurry up and get here already so I can tell you to shut up… and also so I can kiss you again. I love you always, Quinn.
AU ; 5 years in the future, Quinn is in an accident. She leaves her new baby to Santana in her will.
Santana,
If you’re reading this something happened to me. I don’t know what but I imagine it was sudden. It seems weird to write it knowing that nothing may ever happen or that nothing has so far, but I have a daughter now so these are the things we’re supposed to do. I know you probably think I’m crazy. I’m currently wondering if maybe I am. But I thought about this really hard, and you’re the only person that makes sense. You have always been my best friend, Santana. We may not see each other so much anymore, but a part of us has been tethered together since we were kids. I never expected to be on my own, with a baby, miles away from where you could give me a hard time about it. I never expected to die but well.. if you’re reading this.. nevermind. I don’t know how big she is by now, or how old. But she’s still my baby girl either way. And I don’t know where you are by now or what you’re doing, but you’re still my girl too. You always have been. She’s taught me so much, about love and responsibility, and to truly have some one. It would be wrong of me not to share how wonderful that is with someone else. And you’ve taught me so much, about loyalty, and trust, and what it means to always have someone pushing you. You’re amazing Santana. There’s no one I’d rather have teaching her things than you. So teach her cheerleading when you can, just don’t be as mean as Coach was to us. Teach her she’s beautiful no matter what. Teach her some of your Lima Heights attitude so no one messes with her, but don’t get her in any trouble, and when you inevitably do, get her out the way I know only you can. Don’t let her be alone but don’t fight her battles for her, just like how you were with me. Let her teach you to take it easy. If she’s still little, she really likes the itsy bitsy spider. I’m already laughing imagining you doing it. I’m sure she’ll love you, and if you hate me for this, and you can’t do it, you don’t have to. But know that I chose you for a reason. I trust you more than anyone, and I love her more than anything in this world. If I’m not going to be around to do it, I want my two girls to take care of each other.
I love you, I trust you, and I have so much faith in you. I always have.
-Q
